and i'm back!

Geez!

My last post was like 2 months ago!  A lot has happened in the long while that I haven't written here.  I had to re-think about the course that my life is taking. It's CRRRRAZY hell!  I really hate the feeling of being lost and unsure of myself.  I was so distracted at work and in grad school.  I did okay, but I was definitely not at my best! 

Anyways, it's almost Chinese New Year!  New Year = Better Me!  This should be my daily mantra.  LOL!

Straight from the Universe,
margaret

it's not about the money money money??? for reals?

I had been contemplating on work and finance matters lately.  I work as a therapist for children with special needs and the pay isn't as much.  Actually, it's a much lower pay compared to when I was working as a corporate trainer in a bank few years back.

Argh.. the sacrifices one has to make just to make one's plan work..  I really hope to finish graduate school the soonest and learn as much as I could from my supervisors now so that in about 2 years (hopefully less) I can go solo and earn better.

And as I type this, a song suddenly played on my mind...

Straight from the Universe,
margaret

break! finally!!!

YAY!!!!

First semester of gradschool is officially over!  I've got 3 weeks to recharge and do a little R&R.  Gotta catch up with a lot of movies I missed because I had to prioritize school and work!

I started last night with The Lincoln Lawyer and I what's a movie marathon without these: :)

In the past weeks, I was able to download a whole bunch of movies as I do countless papers from night time until the wee hours!  Lincoln Lawyer was last night, Crazy Stupid Love was a while ago, I'm halfway through Watchmen, and I'm not so sure what I'll watch next.  But I'm just really glad that at least I can not focus more on my job and take a breather for 3 weeks.  Come November, I'll live a zombie life again.

Oh, I find Lincoln Lawyer awesome, Crazy Stupid Love hilarious and sweet, and Watchmen a bit boring - BUT it's interestingly done.  Very symbolic and metaphorical I must say.

Oh, and I'm glad I have time to blog once again :)  (At least for the next 3 weeks)

Straight from the Universe,

margaret

soundtrip: fastcar by boyce avenue & kina grannis

Saw this the 3 nights ago, and this song has been on repeat on my player since!  I super loved listening to it the other night when it was raining.  I was lying on my bed (which is by my bedroom window), and having this song in the background just gave me such a soothing feeling - for some reason.

Well, I have been really stressed juggling work and gradschool for the past 2 weeks.  First sem for this year is almost over (thank God!).  1 more bloody and sleepless week left!  Can't wait to get a full 8-hour sleep from 10pm to 6pm (which I think is the perfect sleeping hours); to watch a latest movie (haven't done this in months!); to go videoke with my crazy friends; hit the bar on either Friday or Saturday night to have a nightlong fun dancing with my girl friends; and spend quality family time on Sundays!


Straight from the Universe,
margaret

stressful last weeks before end of sem

1st semester of Gradschool is about to end in less than a month!!!  I sooo can feel it already.  How???  Tons of papers and final projects all with almost the same due dates! 

Gahh!!!!  I'm sooooooo stressed and exhausted already!!!! :(  I could use a breather now.. but I can't!!!  And it makes me feel even worse because my highschool buddy just texted me asking me if I wanna go clubbing with her!  I soooo wanna go!  (coz I love dancing, especially if it's with her. I can be myself you know).  Ugh!!!!

I really hope and pray that I pull everything.. every requirement from all of my classes through.  After all these, I am so gonna party!


Straight from the Universe,
margaret

cognitive psychology isn't really my thing

Here I am again, struggling on what to write for my Cognitive Psychology paper!  I've been sitting here in Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf in Gateway Mall for the past 3 hours already, still, my word document is empty.  It's freakin' frustrating!

During college, CogPsy is one of the subjects that's challenging to me.  If I remember it right, I got a higher grade in Chem & Zoology (I don't even like these subjects much..) than CogPsy!  Now that I'm in my masters, it still gives my brain cells an exhausting workout!  Gah! 

Just venting out..

dear PLDT

It's been 39 hours, 15 minutes, and 43 seconds since our phone line went out - not to mention our dsl too.  I've reported this 3 times already, still our phone line's still down.

Normally, this wouldn't have bothered me much.  But since I have tons of school stuffs to do, plus the fact that I haven't get the chance to blog for a couple of days now, and my job search thru internet had been postponed twice already, I AM OFFICIALLY PISSED AT THIS VERY MOMENT!
My patience has ran out.  Seriously, please do better.  I badly badly badly need an internet connection at home.
The only reason that I managed to go online right now is to take a jeepney ride to the nearest mall where there is Coffee Bean & Tea Leaf, so I could use their wifi - and it ain't free!  I had to order at least a drink you know.  The drink is fine, but it just sucks now that having to buy this hot coco w/mallows isn't really on my budget for this week!

Oh, and CBTL's internet connection isn't that stable too!  I've been disconnected and reconnected 5x already in the last 3 hours I'm here!

This may be minute to everyone else, but THIS is a biggie for me, especially now that I'm on a really really reeeeeeally tight budget!  GAH!

FIX your darn line please, PLDT.

Still waiting
Straight from the Universe,
margaret

my new toy

I am so looooooooooving it! Below are the product specifications and my thoughts about it (in blue font):

PRODUCT SPECIFICATION
Processor:		AMD E-Series Dual Core Processor AMD Brazos E350 (1.60GHz, 1M Cache)
Chipset		AMD A50M Fusion Controller Hub
Memory:		2GB DDR3 [i added another 2GB DDR3 for only Php780 / USD18.44]
Hard Disk Drive:		500GB [pre-partitioned - drive C; HP Recovery; & HP Tools]
Optical Disk Drive:		None
Graphics:		UMA Graphics
Network:		802.11b/g/n WLAN Bluetooth(R) Integrated 10/100BASE-T Ethernet LAN
Operating System:		Windows 7 Home Basic
Physical:		Dimension: 29cm x 21.4cm x2.1-3.07cm Weight: Approx. 1.60Kg [<3 how lightweight it is!]
Display:		11.6" HD Brightview Display
Webcam:		Integrated Webcam [1.3 MP]
Audio		Altec-Lansing Speaker [my MUST-HAVE for a laptop]
Battery:		6-cell Lithium-Ion (Li-Ion) battery
Ports:		1x VGA port 3x USB 2.0 ports 1x RJ45 ethernet port 1x HDMI Port 1x headphone-out/microphone-in combo jack Multi-in-One Card Reader
Features:		A dual-core AMD Fusion processor E350 for fast Web surfing and smooth HD video Fast, easy, trusted Web browsing with Windows Internet Explorer AMD Radeon HD 6310 discrete-class graphics and support for DX11 Our CoolSense technology, which adjusts the temperature when the PC is not on a stationary surface An 11.6" diagonal high-definition§§ (720p) display[crystal clear, baby!] A full-size island-style keyboard[does not accumulate dusts much :) ] Multi-touch trackpad Support for 1080p HD content playback Dolby advanced audio and Altec Lansing speakers for premium sound A 6-cell battery that keeps you running for up to 9.5 hours 5 free HP games, already loaded on your PC ENERGY STAR® qualification

Perfect for professionals and students alike. I haven't tried hardcore gaming though, so I can't recommend it to gamers. But there are reviews I found on the web that it serves the gamers perfectly fine as well.

Oh, did I mention that I got this new toy for only PHP 21,500 / USD 508.51?!?! :)

Straight from the Universe,
margaret

at wits end

It's almost 3 am...

It's been 14 hours since I started to work on my take home midterm exam for Cognitive Psychology, and boy I still have a blank word sheet on my screen!

There are 4 questions that I need to answer in an essay form, and gah! This is just so frustrating!

Oh, did I mention that it's due tomorrow at 6pm! Man, this is killing me bigtime! Not that I did not learn anything from the 2 months that I had been attending this class. It's just that I have the answers in my head, but I am finding it hard to squeeze them out.

Have you ever been in such a situation? Like you know you know the answers to the questions, but you just can seem to find a way to speak them out.. you can't seem to organize your thoughts in a manner that it would make great sense.

It's frustrating! And I feel like pulling my hair out!!! (As if that's gonna help extract the answers that I need now!) Ugh!

Such feeling of frustration brought me here.. into writing a blog. I figured I need to just vent out and let these words keep flowing until I find the rhythm, and then in a bit be able to (God-willingly) write down my answers for the essay questions.

And maybe I should do some exercise that induces focus. I think there is such a thing. I'm gonna have to search youtube for such.

Anyway, I better get going.

Straight from the Universe,

margaret